आत्मरक्षार्थ (कवितासङ्ग्रह)

 

आत्मरक्षार्थ

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k|sfzs M

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k|ltlnlk clwsf/ M n]vsdf

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ljifo–;"rL

!= d'lSt

@= OR5f

#= labfOdf

$= clGtd k|Zg

%= b]zsf] uLt

^= ;"o{nfO{

&= xfd|f] syf

*= d]/f] d[To'

(= k[y'td k|]d

!)= k|Zg

!!= dfof ug{]

!@= k~rfotnfO{

!#= k~rfot

!$= zxLbnfO{

!%= 8fFsf u/f}F

!^= d ul0ftsf] df:6/

!&= vf]hL

!*= d[To';Fu

!(= z'esfdgf

@)= d gn]v]sf] ;fbf sfut

@!= k|Zg M cf}F;Lsf] /ftnfO{

@@= cfTd/Iffy{

          

 

!= d'lSt

 

hLjge/ aufPsf]

kl;gf

kof{Kt eP x'GYof]

lrtf kvfNg cfkm\gf] .

–O6x/L, )^% c;f/ *

 

@= OR5f

 

yfxf 5 dnfO{

;8slsgf/df v:tf

jf:tf x'“b}g s;}af6

cf]OnfO{ em/]sf] km"nsf],

t/ klg d x'g rfxG5'

ToxL km"n .

–O6x/L, )^^ ebf} !(

 

#= labfOdf

 

6f]nsf] kLknsf] ¿vdflysf] h"g

ltdLn] PSn} x]g"{ a? /ftdf .

 

dfjnd} /x'g\ ;fgf 5f]/Lx¿

w]/} slnnf 5g\ ltgsf xft

cfsf/ 5fDg kL8fsf] .

w]/} slnnf 5g\ ltgsf x[bo

eofjx :j¿k a'em\g d[To'sf] .

–@)^& c;f]h @%, O6x/L

 

 

 

 

 

$= clGtd k|Zg

 

slxn] d}n]

ltdLnfO{

;xg;S5' eg]sf] lyP“ /

rf]6 wf]sfsf] <

–@)^& c;f}h @%, O6x/L

 

%= b]zsf] uLt

 

dnfO{ ;f]Wb5g\ vf]nf vf]N;f gfnf ;/f]a/

af]Sg] xf] lsg xfdLn] yf]qf Knfl:6s / kmf]x/

dnfO{ ;f]W5 of] af6f] s}n];Dd ?FuL a;F"

dnfO{ ;f]W5 of] df6f] s}n];Dd ?Fb} a;"F . -!_

 

kb{]zL x]g{ cfpF5g\ ;'gL ;'Gb/tf–syf

xfd|f] Tof] Oltxf; a]Rb} afFR5g\ dflg; oL otf

xfd|f kfvfkv]/fdf :ju{ ldNb5 ljZjsf]

xfd|f 8fF8f–t/fO{df ;j{:j kmN5 /fi6«sf] . -@_

 

a'4sf] n'lDagL ;fFrf}F afFrf}F uj{ ;hfpFb}

;Ltfsf] ldlynf afFrf}F ;fFrf}F ;To p7fpFb}

xn];L, jh|af/fxL, d'lStIf]q, kz'klt

:joDe", l/8L, uf];fOFs'08, a/fxIf]qdf . -#_

 

cf:yfsf 3/ hf]ufcf}F, arfcf}F k|s[lt¿k

xfd|f vf]nf, gbL, vf]N;f, kf]v/L, bx, vf8n

jgkfvf, kv]/f / eL/, lxdfn, kj{t

h]h] 5g\ ca hf]ufcf}F, / ufcf}F b]zsf] uLt . -$_

–@)^^ h]7, O6x/L

 

 

 

 

 

 

^= ;"o{nfO{

 

laxfg}b]lv cN5L ub{}ub{}

klZrd nfU5;\

lbge/ nfP/

pbf;–pbf;

kx]Fnf] ;aeGbf klZrd k'Ubf .

 

t/ /ftdf km]l/ ;'6'Ss}

k"j{ nfUbf] /x]5;\

s] t]/L lk|of klg

k"j{} /xG5] <

–      sf];]9'ª\uf–! -@)%( j}zfv_ df k|sflzt

 

&= xfd|f] syf

 

b]jsf]6fh:tf] d eP ltDnfO{ /f]Psf] x[bo

Roft]/ vf]nL zAbsf] hfdf k}x«fO{ b]vfpFy]F

d'6'sf] Joyf dgsf] ax zAbdf pg]/}

d cfnf] d'gf–dbgsf] syf ;a}nfO{ ;'gfpFy]F .

 

Kof/L xF ltDnfO{ xF'bf] xf] kSs} d}nfO{ em}F j]bgf

;Dem]/ kSs} vf]HbL xf} d}nfO{ tL nfvf}F dfG5]df

;kgf b]vL /DbL xf} d} em}F 7fg]/ ldng ef]

ljkgf km]l/ Aofh ;d]t dfuL Tof] v';L vf]:tf] xf] .

 

gbf]xf]l/of];\ b'MvfGt syf d'gf / dbgsf]

gbf]xf]l/of];\ cfF;'sf] syf dfwj–uf}/Lsf]

b}j / sfnsf 5n]/ cfFvf, ;Gtf]if v';Ldf

;'6'Ss afrf}F ;+;f/nfO{ yfxfkQ} glbO{ ..

– sf];]9'ª\uf–! -@)%( j}zfv_ df k|sflzt

 

 

 

 

 

*= d]/f] d[To'

 

tF lsg ;w}F d]/f] kl5 nfUg yfln;\ <

d v]tdf cfnL nfpg nfu]sf] a]nf

tF d]/} 5]pdf 5;\ eGg] s'/f la;{]sf] 5'

/f]Kbf, /f]lk/x]sf] a]nf

tF d]/} 5]pdf 5;\ eGg] s'/f la;{]sf] x'G5'

ha d k'm;{t kfpF5'–lnG5'

clg dfq dnfO{ t]/f] ;Demgf x'G5 .

–@)$%÷$÷!$, O6x/f

 

 

(= k[y'td k|]d

 

d gf} jif{sf] 5Fbf

p;sf] / d]/f] lax] ePYof]

lxhf] h:tf] nfU5

d a]x'nf] eO{

8f]nL r9]sf] .

 

;Fu} y'k|} b'Mv ef]luof]

y'k}| xif{ afFl8of]

;Fu} y'k}| tLy{at{ ul/of]

y'k}| wfd wfOof] .

;Fu} of] c/0o emf]8f kmfFl8of]

;Fu} of] 3/–u'F8 nfOof] .

 

cfh lqxQ/ jif{ lat]5g\ otf

pm Ps h'u ;fy lbP/ uO{

kmsL{ gcfpg] u/L

3/df b}nf] nfP/ .

 

df;', x8\8L ;a} uln;s]sf] 5

uO{ pm klg

k[y'td k|]dsf] ef/L 5f8]/

s] u¿F d afFr'Gh]n <

?Fu]/ a:5' o} uj{ .

 

t/

s]6f xf] ∕ ltdLx¿n]

xfd|f em}F

xfd|f] hq} ux«f}F k|]d

ug{ ;sf}nf s] xF <

-emfkf dxf/fgLemf]8fdf a:g] d]/f dfOnf a8fafsf] syf / k|efjdf n]lvPsf] ._

— @)$%÷%÷!%, O6x/f

 

!)= k|Zg

 

b;}F cfpF5

ufpF3/df w]/}n]

3/3/df v;L sf6\5g\

/fFuf sf6\5g\

eujtLnfO{ v';L kfg{ .

 

x] eujtL ∕

;f/f k|f0fL ltd|f ;Gtfg x'g\ eg]

v;Laf]sf, /fFuf sf6\g]nfO{

lsg gsf6 elGbgf} <

cfkm\g} Pp6f gfgL df/]/

csf{] gfgLn] nfPsf] ef]u

s;/L lnG5f} xF <

 

x}g eg]

ca ltdL g} eg eujtL

b;}F s;/L dgfcf}F t <

s]sf] ef]u nfcf}F t <

–@)$%÷^÷^, O6x/f

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

!!= dfof ug{]

 

‘la/fnf <

ga;\ x} To;df t

a'lem;\

Tof] t dfOnf dfdfsf] kL/f ∕’

 

efG;f sf]7fdf ;fgL efGhL

/

dfp la/fnf] /x]5g\

af]Ng] ;fgL efGhL .

 

‘kSsf g6]g{] <

uf]b"F ca <

elGbpF dfOnf dfdfnfO{ <’

 

t/

la/fnf] g8/fO{

al;/x]sf] lyof] .

-;fFlNbbLsL ;flxFnL 5f]/L l;h{gf efGhLsf] lrq_

–@)$%÷!!÷^, O6x/f

 

!@= k~rfotnfO{

 

x] k~rfot sK6L em6\6 k/ hf nf} lg:sL hf d'lG6hf

6\ofSs} l6Sg d lbGgF of] d'n'sdf hf] sf6\g' sfl6;\ dhf

tF}n] ug'{ ul/;\ ;a} wg xl/;\ g]kfn gfª\uf] ul/;\

l6St}g;\  ax'bn cufl8 ca t}F cK7\of/f] r]kdf kl/;\ .

–-@)$^÷!÷$, huGgfy zdf{ u'/fuf~fLsf] u'0f/Tgdfnfsf] cfn:odfly /lrt sljtfsf] Kof/f]8L_

 

 

 

 

 

 

!#= k~rfot

 

y'Gbly;\ JolSt hf] ;TojfbL lyP

dfb{ly;\ JolSt hf] Gofok|]dL lyP

eGbly;\ d'6\7Le/ pu|jfbL egL

7fGbly;\ b]z g} k~rsf] l9s'6L .

 

t]/f] lgb{ndf c6]g ax'bn Hofb} eof] ;fFu'/f]

xfd|f] af}bnleq lgb{n klg c6\g]5 a'em\g" s'/f]

xTof, n"6, 3';vf]/L h] hlt ul/;\ a'l4 ;kf/ x} ca

sfg kS8L p7–a; u/]/ hgtf ;fd" z/0f nf} tF k/\ .

–-@)$^÷!÷$

 

 

!$= zxLbnfO{

 

g/f]pm x} cfdf d/]sL 5}gg\ tL ltd|f jL/ 5f]/L

g/f]pm x} afaf d/]sf 5}gg\ tL ltd|f jL/ 5f]/f .

 

ltg}sf] /ut aUg]5 xfd|f] g]kfnL d'6'df

ltg}sf d':sfg v'Ng]5g\ xfd|f g]kfnL ufnfdf .

 

zxLb ltdL zflGtn] /x" cgGt cfsfzdf

/dfpm xfF; xfd|f] of] v';L b]v]/ wtL{df .

–@)$&÷!÷&, s]/faf/L, df]/ª

!%= 8fFsf u/f}F

 

p;}sf xftdf ;]gf,

p;}n] rnfpg] /fhgLlt,

p;}sf xftdf Gofosf] t/fh',

p;}sf] ;DklQ nfvf}Fnfvsf]–

s/f]8f}F–s/f]8sf], c/af}F–c/asf] .

clg p;}sL a"9L v/af}F–v/a

ljb]zdf n'sfpF5] .

 

km]l/ p;}nfO{

c7\rfnL; nfvsf] jflif{s eQf <

km]l/ p;}sf 5f]/f, a'xf/L, 5f]/L, HjfOF / /vf}6L;d]tnfO{

nfvf}Fnfvsf] eQf <

 

xfdLrflxF l9F8f]–u'Gb|'s;Dd gkfpg] <

Ps kfOnf] wtL{ gkfpg] <

Ps;/f] nfpg gkfpg] <

cf]t gkfpg] <

lzIff gkfpg] <

uf]8f k;f/]/ ;'Tg gkfpg] <

s]xL gkfpg] <<

 

x'Fb}g .

o:tf] ;xg'xF'b}g ∕

8fFsf u/f}F hgtfx¿ p;sf] 3/df

xfd|f] To;f] ug{] xs klg t 5 M

‘j'e'lIftd\ lsd\ g s/f]lt kfkd\ .’

–@)$&÷$÷#), s]/faf/L, df]/ª

 

 

!^= d ul0ftsf] df:6/

 

Pp6f Hofgdf/fnfO{

t]QL; jif{ s}b 7f]lsG5

7f]Sg' klg k5{ .

csf{sf] Hofg dfg{ sxfF kfOG5 t <

o;} jif{ kfFr ;o eGbf w]/} Hofg dfg{]

o; /fhfnfO{

cufl8sf ;f/f ck/fw / xTofx¿

5'6 lbP klg

;f]x« xhf/ kfFr ;o jif{ t

s}b 7f]Sg}k5{ .

 

cfkm" t ul0ftsf] df:6/

o:t} lx;fa kf]

gfgLx¿nfO{ k9fpF–k9fpF nfU5  .

 

of] ;a a'emL–a'emLsg

;+j}wflgs /fhtGqsf] kIfdf

af]Ng]x¿ xf] ∕

ltdLx¿nfO{ klg dltof/ ag]sf]

aft nufpnfg\ x} hgtfx¿n]

d}n] a]n}df elGbof 5 .

–@)$&÷$÷#), s]/faf/L

 

!&= vf]hL

 

kxf8sf] To; zLtn ufpFdf x's{]sf] d

lsg t/fO{ em/]F xf]nf <

t/fO{sf] xl/of] kmfF6df em/]sf] d

o; 7fpFdf cfPF xf]nf <

d]/f] ufpF, ;fyL;FuL 5f8L

lsg d ot} x'lQPF xf]nf <

 

hLjg ;kmn kfg{] k|0fdf

lsg d oxLF cfPF x'Fnf <

;fob d]/f] /ut afNosfnb]lv

ltdLlt/ tflgPsf] lyof]

To;}n] t ;f/f ;+;f/ 5f8L

ltdLnfO{ e]6\g cfPF x'Fnf .

–@)$&÷%÷@$, s]/faf/L

 

!*= d[To';Fu

 

tF ;w}F lk5f ul//xG5;\ d]/f]

lsg <

cl3 klg tF

d}nfO{

sf]6\ofpFb} lyO;\,

clxn] klg .

 

clnslt ;do b] g

l;ª\uf] ;+;f/ x]g'{ 5

l;ª\uf] ;+;f/ 3'Dg' 5

l;ª\uf] ;+;f/ l;Fufg'{ 5 .

 

pgL k/ dnfO{ klv{/x]sL xf]lng\

PskN6 e]6 ;Dd ug{ lbGg;\ <

;f/f b'lgofF /dfO/x]sf] 5

dnfO{ Psl5g v]Ng lbGg;\ <<

–@)$&÷%÷@%, s]/faf/L

 

 

!(= z'esfdgf

 

afFr x} xfF;]/

lg/f]uL /x" ;w}F

 

r'/f gkm'6'g\ slxNo}

l;pFbf] /ft} /xf];\ ;w}F

r'nf] grsf{];\ ;w}F

yfn gv;f];\ slxNo}

l;GsL glau|f];\ slxNo}

eft g89f];\ slxNo} .

 

cfF;' gem/f];\ slxNo}

;Dem]/ tL lbgx¿

g6f]xf]lng" x} slxNo}

lg/fz gaGg" slxNo} .

 

gemls{g" klt;Fu

s:t} k/] tfklg

gs'6\g" x} gfgLx¿

slQ emu8f u/] klg .

 

ltdL /f]P ?G5 of]

d]/f] b'MvL dg

ltdL xfF;] xfF:5 of]

d]/f] b'MvL dg .

–@)$&÷%÷@^, s]/faf/L

 

@)= d gn]v]sf] ;fbf sfut

 

;fob lrg]s} 5}g xf]nf

;fob e]6]s} 5}g xf]nf

s:tf] cfs[lt sNk"F ltd|f]

;fob b]v]s} 5}g xf]nf .

 

t/ ltdL 5f}, hxfF eP klg

gq lsg sNkgfdf cfpFYof} <

k|ltlbg, k|lt/ft

s'g} c:ki6 cfs[ltdf

gq lsg sNkgfdf cfpFYof} <

 

d klv{/x]sf] 5' cfh

w/tLsf] o; s'gfdf

-lrGb} glrg]sL x'g;S5_

ltd|f] ofbdf .

 

5f} xf]nf s'g} SofDk;df

jf s'g} :s'ndf g} cem}

hfg"F d s;/L

5f} xf]nf w]/} 6f9f

jf glhs}

a'emF" d s;/L <

 

To; lbg

s] n]v]sf] eg]/

glh:Sofpm x},

lsg gaf]nfPsf] eg]/

geg s]xL, n <

 

km];g / 9/f{sf y'k|} k|bz{gx¿

o'jtLsf eL8x¿

Ps a6\6f km]o/ PG8 nEnLn]

slt lbg k'U5 xF <

 

ls ;f}Do d'b|fdf

s'g} uxg k':tsdf dUg

w/tLsf ;f/f c¿ la;L{

ls 5f}  ls To;} ljifodf d'Uw <

To;f] eP e}uf] d cfh}

l8:6a{ ulb{gF klg ∕

 

lqrfnL; ;fnsf] c;f/ tLg ut]

/ftsf] 7Ls P3f/ ah]/ kfFr ldg]6 uof]

-d]/f 38Lsf cg';f/ x} ∕

of] ;/b/ tLg ldg]6 l56f] 5_

ltdL s] ub{} 5f} xf]nf <

 

dh:t} u/L

sfNklgs d]/f] ofbdf

sljtf g} n]Vt} 5f} ls

;do lgs} lalt;Sof]

lbgel/sf] ysfO lyof]]

d:t lgbfO kf] /x]sL 5f} ls

To;f] eP e}uf] cfh

l8:6a{ ulb{gF klg .

 

t/ klg Pp6f s'/f]

;'g t ∕

;'g ∕∕

x]/ ∕ ;dosf] /y pl8/x]5

To;df clxNo} r9\g kfP ∕

d s] u¿F < s] eg"F <

 

xfd|f s}og\ OR5fx¿

x[bosf, z/L/sf, dgsf

To;}To;} afFem} klN6/x]5g\

6'n'6'n' x]l//x]5g\ .

 

s}og\ cª\sdfnx¿

Gofgf cFufnfx¿

v]/ uO/x]5g\

-To;} eG5g\ x} c¿,

xf]nf klg_

s}og\ r'Dagx¿

Gofgf DjfOFx¿

-To;} eG5g\ x} c¿,

xf]nf klg_

 

d cfOk'Ug'cl3

lgs} pknlAwx¿

y'k|} cg'ejx¿

w]/} ;kmntfx¿

s]xL c;kmntfx¿ klg

sdfP/ kv{

cfpm

d cfpFb} 5'

ltdL klg l56} ot} cfpm .

d cfpFb} 5'

;do;Fu}

ltdL klg cfpm

e]6 sxfF x'g] <

–@)$*÷#÷#, s]/faf/L

 

 

@!= k|Zg M cf}F;Lsf] /ftnfO{

 

cfkm\gL rGb|df gx'Fbf tFnfO{

s] dnfO{ em}F

z"Go / PSnf]

dx;"; x'g]u5{ <

–@)%#÷@÷!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

@@= cfTd/Iffy{

 

efiff sdhf]/

efj sdhf]/

no, cnª\sf/, 5Gb sdhf]/

sdhf]/ cg'k|f; clg laDaljwfg,

xf], d]/f] sljtf sdhf]/ g} 5 .

 

slxNo} bfaL ul/gF d}n]

ls snfTds 5 d]/f] sljtf

ls ;'Gb/ 5 d]/f] sljtf

ls alnof] 5 d]/f] sljtf

ls chDd/L 5 d]/f] sljtf

slxNo} ug{}5}g d Tof] bfaL .

 

t/ slj dxf]bo ∕

s;}n] n]lvlbPg

n]Vg} ;s]g ;fob

d]/f] eGg'

d}n] hlt eGg

;St}g c¿ s;}n] ;fob .

d eG5'

sljtfdf eG5' .

d]/f sljtf sdhf]/ xf]nfg\

l7s} 5, sdhf]/} ;xL

t/ log} dfq t x'g;S5g\

d]/f cfkm\gf sljtf ..

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